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it’s not you’re* or your*. it’s all Mine. everything is Mine
I’ve always put your happiness before mine and maybe that’s why I’m sad. I’ve put everyone’s happiness before mine expecting someone to do the same and no one ever did.
- 2am Suggestion
“My soul recognized you before I did. I’m sure mine saw yours and went ‘Oh God, there you are, I’ve been waiting for you!’”
— Ira Martelo (x)
I love sleeping next to you.
I love listening to your breathing and realizing that at some point, our breaths became one, in sync with the other’s lungs.
I love feeling you twitch just slightly as you fall asleep; a toe against mine, a brief suggestion of a shrug, a small frown against my head.
I love waking up at 4am to feel you pull me closer.
I love rolling over to cuddle against your back in the late morning after we have both had and forgotten our nightmares.
I love sleeping next to you. Now, whenever you are not there, I lay in the silence, in the stillness, in the emptiness, and I have to force my eyes to close and convince sleep to come anyway.
And in the morning, when I wake up to a vast sea of sheets and space and loneliness, I remember my nightmares.
The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance, or time. And no matter how much more special or beautiful or brilliant or perfect than me he might be, he was as irreversibly altered as I was. As I would always belong to him, so would he always be mine.
I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped.
I know the storms already and grow embroiled like the sea.
